I am finding that even the best of intentions leads to unexpected destinations now. I may know exactly what I need to do in order for a conversation or an or an event to go well for me, but I also know that the actions of others can create a much different outcome. I am okay with this today. Instead of mourning what didn't manifest, I am ready to roll with the punches and enjoy whatever reality turns out to be. I never look better than when I am the one who can turn potential disasters in to amazing opportunities.
Today, the contractor is called to complete the plans that I should have started months ago. Today, I will know that despite the past years' good works, kindness, compassion, and tenacity to be the best I can be, it will never erase the misdeeds of my past. I am okay with this outcome. The skeletons in the closets of others will be kept in the writings and documents, to be added to, and to be found after I have left this earth. We cannot change the verisimilitude of real truth because each person has their own interpretation of truth. Once the person has established their own perceived truth, it becomes absolute truth. Of course, in this light, I have determined that I am to continue on my own path and let authenticity reveal itself in due time.
Today, the winds of change are filling my sails with a wonderful wind to take me forward into new adventures and to a place where my good works over the past years will not be darkened by what mistakes I have made. In a few months, I graduate, I will be promoted, and I will make my career more a success than it is today. I will stay. I will take the blame brought on by others in revelation; some mine, some not mine. How sad that my hurts and sufferings are not allowed to be present in the same room! It is others that will have to live with the cruelty and destruction; especially when it comes time to meet their Most High.
The waters will be muddy for a time. A petition will be filed in the next few days asking for contempt charges against a stalker. I have given enough time on this matter. In regard to other matters, I will not let a momentary mood swing or harsh words, lies and deceit, inform or deter major decisions. Everything today will become clear tomorrow. How grateful I am for a son's loving words. He definitely saved my day!
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