Have you ever held a grudge so deep that you can’t think straight? Has someone ever done something bad to you that you feel vengeful and you hate them so much? But have you ever realized that it is tiring to hate? Don’t you want to put an end to it? And I bet you know how it feels when you keep on waiting for the apology and it never comes? And you keep asking yourself, “How do I suppose to react to such a situation? How come they haven’t said sorry yet? Will that ever happen? And what would it make me if I forgive without having received a proper apology?” See, you answered your own question here; it’s about recognition. It’s about us feeding our own ego. If they hurt you but they apologize, at least you’d feel like they respect you even slightly. And that’s what you actually want; recognition. We want them to regret what they did to us. We want them to recognize their faults, and believe it or not, we want them to recognize us. We want them to recognize us as someone they hurt, someone they owe an apology to. But what if it never comes? Should we feel more hurt? Should we feel abandoned?
We have all been there doing that when it comes to hurting people. We have been the ones who have been hurt and we have been the ones who have hurt people, on purpose or not. We are all humans after all, we make mistakes, sometimes repeatedly. Forgiving doesn’t necessarily mean you have to forget all about what happened. It’s almost impossible. But if we decide to look at our pain with different points of view, we can accept, forgive, and let go – and therefore, make peace with ourselves and become stronger and wiser than ever before.
I am only hurting yourself if I keep on hating other people. It is tiring, not only to my mind, but also to my body. Don’t you know that the cause of so many physical illnesses is actually coming from the restless mind? I have a woman stalker. She continues in her relentless search for nothingness combined with arrogance and righteousness. We understand her dilemma and need for validation. You know what I have learned? Go for it, lady!! If this is all that you have to look forward to in your lonely, destitute world, please, go for it. I think of myself only now! You don’t have to prove to anyone that you are respected, strong and immune to pain. Those who hurt you won’t even care, and those who love you don’t need it because they know your worth.
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